Straight Cowboy by Jan Irving
Length: Short Story (57 pgs)
Other: M/M, Anal Play
Rating: 4 cherries
Reviewed by Coreopsis
Joshua Ryan did a stint for much-needed cash as the ‘straight cowboy’ in gay porn movies but he doesn’t think of himself as gay, so why does he want to do the things to Matt James he once did in front of a camera?
Cowboy Joshua Ryan can’t stop his erotic thoughts about Matt James, the hearing-impaired guest he’s taking into the foothills in search of wild horses. Matt James has dreamed all his life of coming out west. He’s at first taciturn with Josh, afraid he’s as close minded as some other hands they encounter on their excursion, but when Josh reaches for him unconsciously in his sleep, Matt has a tough time hiding his desire for a ‘straight’ man.
Straight Cowboy brings together two men from completely different backgrounds and life styles. Josh is a cowboy who professes to be straight and Matt a city boy who is gay and has set his sights on Josh. Josh is one cowboy Matt has no attentions of letting ride off into the sunset.
I just loved the character of Josh. He is a young man who has done some things he isn’t proud of all for the sake of family. He’s struggling with his sexuality and feels confused about his own feelings towards city boy Matt. At times how Josh treated Matt was a little unsettling but it isn’t done out of cruelty, it's done out of fear. In his mind he isn’t gay only gay for pay, or so he keeps telling himself.
Matt is hearing impaired and he has come out to the great outdoors in search of wild horses. Matt wants to write a paper about these horses, and being paired up with Josh as his tour guide was an extra bonus. Matt is fully aware where he seen the sexy cowboy before and doesn’t judge his past actions, but it is making it hard for Matt to stop having dirty thoughts about his cowboy guide.
The interaction between Josh and Matt was really sweet. Josh has family members who are deaf so he is able to sign to Matt. Matt has just recently gotten hearing implants so he can hear but Josh isn’t for sure how much or how good. But when Matt speaks to Josh, Josh is pleasantly surprised. Once the ice is broken these two men form a bond. They discuss being deaf, family, and Josh’s job as a tour guide. Slowly these two men start fall for one another.
The sex at first was all one sided but it help tell their story. With two gay men, one who is comfortable with his sexually orientation, and one who is coming to grips with it, there’s bound to be misunderstandings. In such few pages we get to see Josh and Matt become friends than lovers.
Straight Cowyboy is a beautiful love story between two men who suffer from their own self-doubts and insecurities. Reading how Josh and Matt break out of their shells to see what really is important in life was a satisfying and uplifting read.