I Am Fallen by Scarlet Blackwell
Publisher: Silver Publishing
Genre: Historical, Paranormal
Length: Full Length (192 pages)
Rating: Best Book
Reviewed by Amaryllis
Children's book writer Jacob Bailey has retreated to Scotland to die in solitude, tormented by the loss of the love of his life, and wishing for an end to his suffering. In his remote house on the cliff he is visited by an angel, with history and pain of his own, a being who brings far more to Jacob's final days than he could ever hope for.
A surrealistic story that highlights the beauty of love. Warning, this is a bittersweet tale. It is not something for the faint of heart. It explores tough, painful issues and may well raise questions within the reader that are not always comfortable. I loved that aspect of it. There’s a touch of the epic within this story, for it portrays something epic, how a bright star slowly dims and comes to acceptance.
Jacob is the central focus of I Am Fallen and he is a very immediate character. I felt myself immediately connected to him and sympathetic to him without feeling pity. He’s so unflinchingly honest in his appraisal of himself and his regrets in his life. There is no part of this story that came across as soapbox sentimental. It was unique and refreshing, raw and honest.
If love angst mixed with moments of joy, you might very well enjoy this story and be taken into another place and time. Ms. Blackwell captures the experience of being chronically ill so much that what the body is capable of focusing on and perceiving becomes numbed out. Yet still being human and having yearning and feelings that render one feeling powerless, weak, beyond vulnerable. There’s a sharpness given to the moments of joy and greater awareness that Jacob experiences. He gives freely of his newfound wisdom to those around him.
This is a love story above all else. Jacob and Lucifer share a love that transcends the physical realm. They take strength from each other, they learn from each other. They grow. Lucifer’s character was well done. He contains all the passion and contradictions one would expect a fallen angel to have. I Am Fallen has a breathtaking happy ending but it is not the typical one. I loved it.
I Am Fallen really shows the versatility and depth that Ms. Blackwell possesses as an author. She tackled the tricky issues of sickness, death, regret and religion and wove them into a masterpiece of transcendence and love.